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hurmm...why it turn out like this??serious don't know why...please don't torture me like this...I hate being like this...such a hypocrit...actually I also don't want to be a hypocrit but the surrounding force me to be like that...my heart is hurt...I also don't know why I must feel like this...actually I'm not supposed to feel like this...sometime It's really can make me jump into trap...but luckily I know how to save myself...This is the only way I can express my feeling...better for me to write here than tell the people...sometimes I feel like wanna cry..but it's not my style at all...Ya ALLAH please guide me to straight way so that I can know where I should go and what I should do..please give me your guidelines Ya ALLAH...